WORDS TO KILL BY...
A lot of these songs were written for my first band, Filth Industry. Some of them were from our first cd "Bandersnatch" (which means: A wildly bizarre or grotesque individual). Some of them were for our never-released second cd, which was to be titled "FIstula." Definition.
Worthless
My face is a costume of pain
Never know the real
Smash up all that I see
Tortured forever, what’s the big fucking deal
Give up on me – I’m all out
Let me go – It’s all over
Quit trying to save me
I’m worthless to anyone
Nothing can help me
Nothing can make me well
I’m a nobody, a jokers joke
A fake made up nothing that’s always been broke
A million pills can’t fix me
Nothing will change the inevitable
Chorus (x2)
No more time for anything
All’s lost but for the doubt
Chorus (x2)
Lyrics: Ron Farrell
Music: Throe Vein
Copyright 2003
Take this and go away
I’m feeling it again, the need
Wells up inside me, I can’t control
I’m angry, I’m tight
Ready to split from the inside out
Take this and set me free
The reality of creativity
Take this and get the demons out
Doesn’t anyone know what I’m talking about
Take this and go away
Without lungs I cry out to you
My life gone, like the snow in spring
Cries echo in my head
Cries that end the painful, deafening ring
Chorus
Death to the optimism and hope
For only grief does lye
Another laugh floats on the sea of my memory
Smashing every now and then into the part
That won’t let go, that won’t be calm
I’m feeling it again – it’s about to start
chorus
Alter Ego
Lick my lips at the prospect
Swimming thoughts surround just one
Wait for the intoxicating moment
Spilling past my tongue
-this is what I’ve waited for
It’s what I’ve lost completely
Sinking to the point where I fear
Living like this can only mean death’s near
If I could fly I’d come quietly to you
Silent, unknown, barely in view
Taste your skin, feel my lust begin
This is what I’ve waited for
Bloodlust...
Lyrics: Ron Farrell
Music: Throe Vein
Copyright 2003
Fuck Face
Get on your knees – now
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
You’re my slave – now
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
Wonderful pain – now
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
No way for you to get out
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
I want to love you
I want to let you go
But I don’t respect you
So I’m gonna fuck your face
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
I’ll make you scream and shout
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
Never let you leave me now
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
Vicious destruction – now
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
I want to love you
I want to let you go
But I don’t respect you
So I’m gonna fuck your face
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
You’re my slave – now
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
Wonderful pain – now
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
Vicious destruction – now
GET IN, GET OFF, GET OUT
On you neck, On your back, Inside you, Outside you (x2)
Get it (x2)
Suck it (x2)
Fuck It (x2)
Fuck It
Can you feel it deep inside of you?
…Fuck Your Face….
Lyrics: Ron Farrell
Music: Throe Vein
Copyright 2003
Face the way I am cause of what I’ve been through
I am the world’s play thing and there’s nothing I can do
Right now I’m feeling I finally know
I fear the fact that everyday I can never go
Play thing, Play thing
I’m sick of hearing it
This life sucks
That’s why I guess I fear it
Play thing, Play thing
I gotta be strong
But I don’t know now
Why I’ve lasted this long
Fall down to the nasty in me
The forbidden place that has no key
Nothing saves except the pain
I know I’m here but I feel it all again
Chorus
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 1999)
Music by Filth Industry (copyright 1999)
something need to shake me from this dream
just when everything went right
everything went terribly wrong
what the hell went wrong
a life sent spiraling
what the hell went wrong
to leave us crying
once so strong, a free-willed sould
now shudders at the thought of another day
when will this end
chorus
verse 1
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 1999)
Music by Filth Industry (copyright 1999)
she was my pain
she was my desperation
my never again
hold out for nothing but another quiet morning
when all feels hollow and the love is gone
i went to you with my love
i went to you with my life
laugh at me when i need you
leave me when i ached for you
all the things i loved in life
now someone’s idea of what not to do
all the things supposed to be a wife
now everyone knows what i went through
this was my devestation, to watch you killing me
the mad love that took my soul
i went to you with my love
i went to you with my life
laugh at me when i can’t let go
leave me when my world collides
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 1999)
Music by Filth Industry (copyright 1999
How many times? I told you once
How many times? I told you twice
How many times? I’ll tell you three
How many times? Quit fuckin’ with me!
Fuck it! No one cares anyways
Fuck it! I’m just a stupid slave
Fuck it! Accept your fate and move on
Fuck it! Can’t ever lead me on
Leave me alone, I tried to be your friend
Leave me alone, quit your wannabe ways
Leave me alone, now you sound like a pussy
Leave me alone, this is how it’s gonna be
Chorus
Strong is what I am
Small is how you feel
Now I take my stand
Check this ‘cause now I’m real
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 1999)
Music by Filth Industry (copyright 1999)
The one thing that’s supposed to happen
Is the one confusing me
Is the time coming now,
When we will face eternity?
People say to look out and seek
Because the end is drawing near
Everyday I tell myself
Don’t worry, quell the fear.
We’ve lost our child’s eyes!
Tell me - is it me that made you sin?
What’s gonna happen to us? When’s this gonna end?
What’s it gonna take to make me stand up and realize
That it’s all gone now cause we’ve lost our child’s eyes.
Deep down I feel the trembling of my life
I try to push it down but I’m never really satisfied
Questions are the only thing I have
I don’t want to die; I don’t want to die
My God, I see what you don’t want me to see
My fingers curl in pain
The unseeing, scared, plastic people say they believe
Tell me the prophecy again
We’ve lost our child’s eyes!
Chorus
Looking out over the horizon of my life,
I don’t think this should be called right
All the loss, all the hurt, amazing what on the inside can lurk
Please take me by my hand and lead me through
Scared now that all I’ve ever heard is true
Because if it isn’t, what am I going to do?
Faith that’s frayed even with the knowledge of grace
When the day finally comes, what will I face?
We’ve lost our child’s eyes!
Chorus
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 1999)
Music by, Filth Industry (copyright 1999)
slight quiver of the lip as she draws in the night
eyes wide open behind the fabric, all seen is black
take hold of the metal on your wrists
and spread your legs ‘cause i’ll be right back
i really want to taste you, i really need to feel you
right now i need to hurt you, right now i need to help me
help me swallow the loss, help me strangle the damned
help me slam all that i crave into who that i am
she’s getting madder by the passing hand and starting to sweat
i snuck right in behind her and said "let’s make a bet"
bet if i leave you’ll die, bet if i don’t you’ll cry,
either way your ass is mine and that you’ll realize
i really want to taste you, i really need to fuck you
right now i need to break you so you know that you are mine
help me swallow the loss, help me strangle the damned
help me slam all that i crave into who that i am
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 1999)
Music by Filth Industry (copyright 1999)
Where were you
When I cried
Where was I
When you lied
What was wrong
With this love
Gone too fast
Not from above
Where were you?
Where were you?
Where were you?
Where was I?
Where were you
Gone, my love
Where was I
Taste the blood
It was wrong
The way you were
Now you face
What I hate in her
You never loved me
You never loved me
You never loved me
Please love me
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 1999)
Music by, Filth Industry (copyright 1999)
Shepard was killed
Can you tell me why
All he ever tried to do was fucking live
Now he lays beaten and dead
The whole sick lot of you are doomed to go to hell.
And I don’t know why you had to kill life
Fuck You, Phelps!
Fuck You, Phelps!
Fuck You, Phelps!
And I don’t know why you had to kill life
Why did you laugh when he was killed
And why did you want him to die
You killed life
Everyday I try to think what the hell could make you say
That his life was fucking nothing
And he deserved what he got that day
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 2000)
Music by, Filth
Industry (copyright 2000)
Addict Ego
This was what I thought I could play with
I couldn’t give what I owed
Not I lost my very soul
Leaving myself and love
Wanting to hear the plastic glove
Wrap around my arm and begin to live
A life of its own, it makes me sick
Now, see under me lies the color purple
I’m a filthy addict – a product of the lie
Grip is slipping now I fall into the inside
My eyes burn, my heart pounds, I can’t stop now, my breath breath breath is leaving me
SUCK IT UP! DO THE DRUG! WASTE THE LIFE! WASTED MY LIFE!
My eyes burn, my heart pounds, I can’t stop now, my breath breath breath is gone
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 2000)
Music by, Filth
Industry (copyright 2000)
Idiot stick
When I’m used to being beaten by you
Always waited for the day to fight you
Cause I’m convinced I’m nothing without you
Even though I knew it was wrong
I stayed and told you my secrets and fears
Why do I need you this bad
It’s so hard to say I love you through all the tears
I need to take care of me now
Leaving the comfort of my own saturation
To find the real inner strength – that I know is there
To make sense of my lack of self-respect
I can’t handle you when you act like you do
If this is the best that life has to give
Fuck that
Chorus
Idiot stick for making me believe you
Idiot stick for believing what you told me
Idiot stick listen close
You’re fucking dead to me
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 2001)
Music by, Filth Industry (copyright 2001)
6 Degrees of Desperation
remove this metal from my mouth
make me feel like I belong again
outcast from what you say is right
this bullshit might kill me tonight
chorus
Alone, lost, terrified
forgotten, empty, angry
these are the 6 degrees
these are the 6 degrees of desperation
these are the 6 degrees
these are the 6 degrees
turn my wrist towards my face
feel it sink in this time
the smell is enough to make caution go
all is lost this is the final blow
alone in pain
lost in terror
terrified of this life
forgotten forever
empty out the bottom
angry fingers move
these are the 6 degrees that make the trigger move
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 2001)
Music by, Filth Industry (copyright 2001)
Silent Town
Living to please another please
Everyday sucking up on you knees
Send all that you have
See on which tree it grows
bridge
You were born in a silent town
You were raised in a silent town
You will die in a silent town
Please god save me from this
chorus
You’re not what they say you are
Get a goddamed life now
Nothing’s important to you now
In this silent town
Failing to make people understand
Falling on your face, head in the sand
Look to the leaders of the day
Knowing there’s lethargy in your way
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 2001)
Music by, Filth
Industry (copyright 2001)
Envy
You wish you were me because you gave up
You wish you loved me because I’d be there for you
You wish you had me because of what you’ve heard
You wish you killed me because nothing can get rid of me now
chorus
I feel alive
Because you want me dead
I feel entangled by your malicious lies
I feel strangled when in between your thighs
I feel angry when you look at me
I feel vengeance is the only way this should be
Lyrics by, ron farrell (copyright 2001)
Music by Throe Vein (copyright 2002)